An Open Letter to Hanjo & Ananda
April 25, 2023
Dear Hanjo and Ananda:
I am appalled by the two of you. You are children, with the power of gods, playing in a world you don’t understand.
Ryan forwarded me the letter you sent to him. In sending that, you caused to arise what is hopefully the deepest spiral of the trust and betrayal karma that I have been wrestling with for millions of years with Yiting and others. It brings me much sorrow that I have added you to the ranks of those who adopt the Scott-as-evil-magician demiurge and betray my trust in this lifetime. I am relieved that I have become as equanimous as I am this past week, since had I received this message from the two of you before then, I’m not sure I would be living right now. You are children.
I felt it best to quote your message to Ryan and then pick it apart piece by piece. Here is the letter in its entirety:
Hi Ryan we have some unfortunate news to alert you to. Scott is not a safe person for you and Bridget to work with. He is having a psychotic episode, possibly bipolar mania. He went to a key4life event and put the entire charity in danger by offering the inmates drugs. He was callous and unaffected about his inappropriate behavior, even though it has harmed our relationship with Eva. He came to our current retreat and started bragging about how he no longer needed consent to do magic. He pushed boundaries and wouldn't take no for an answer. He threw a tantrum and left when we supported our students who refused to work with him. He has been psychic attacking Fabio and Jacob ever since. We don't believe he is safe or moral as a teacher. We don't believe you and Bridget are safe to be in contact with him or receive any services or favors from him. We implore you to choose freedom from dependent connections and break contact. As always you are the heir of your own karma. Another example of this extreme danger is that Scott stopped following the channeling protocols and has been channeling an entity who is claiming to be the one creator. There are no positive entities claiming to be the creator, the creator is a non-being who is not separate.
Here is my response to each part:
QUOTE: “Hi Ryan we have some unfortunate news to alert you to. Scott is not a safe person for you and Bridget to work with. He is having a psychotic episode, possibly bipolar mania.”
RESPONSE: You are spreading demiurge realities about me without ever once speaking with me. I offered to speak with you two days ago (the day immediately after I left), and you informed me that you were too OVERWHELMED with Jacob to handle digital communications with me and try and sort things out between us. But apparently, you were not too OVERWHELMED to send this message to Ryan - digitally. You are children.
QUOTE: “He went to a key4life event and put the entire charity in danger by offering the inmates drugs. He was callous and unaffected about his inappropriate behavior, even though it has harmed our relationship with Eva.”
RESPONSE: Equanimity is not callousness. The situation was confusing and disorienting, and I was in the middle of a karma. Here is the message I sent to Eva on the flight home:
“Eva, I heard from Hanjo and Ananda. I’m so sorry for any suffering what happened has caused you or may cause you down the road. These events were part of a process of moving important karma off of me, you, Natasha, Aaron, the kids involved, Key4Life and the UK generally; and although the events that occurred were not as apparently portrayed, they nevertheless were an unskillful movement by me, and for that I deeply apologize.
It is clear to me that my days working directly with the kids are likely at an end. I enjoyed the work greatly; and at the same time, I know that my work is best done in different settings, as my working in small groups doesn’t allow me to scale sufficiently. If you wish my assistance going forward (I fully understand if you don’t), the true benefit of my work is in training and clearing your team and providing clearing for the kids. I can do that at this point just by you letting me know each time before you hold an event.
I wish you and Key4Life the utmost success, and I continue to wish to support your mission as best as possible. Should our resources arrive as planned, they will be available to you as discussed.
I have decided to focus my attentions going forward in the United States. Despite its hostility to the sort of things I do, I currently find New York more welcoming to me than the UK. This is not a criticism of you in any way, nor is my decision not to stay the result of these events. My relationship with Hanjo and Ananda has frayed somewhat (again, not as a result of this), and pursuing a New York Center and enlightening billionaires feels like the appropriate thing to do at the moment. I will be back in July if you wish to meet again in person, and am always available by video or phone call.
Be well, Eva. May success and satisfaction rain down upon you.
With my heartfelt love, gratitude and karuna, Scott”
I repeat, equanimity is not callousness. I have intense karuna for their situation. I used this opportunity to craft a new attainment that will allow me to always know when I am in a karma, so this never happens again. I also see how this is part of a pattern to legalize marijuana in the UK in the near future and wish I could have moved that energy more skillfully. I am always seeking, always growing. You are children.
QUOTE: “He came to our current retreat and started bragging about how he no longer needed consent to do magic.”
RESPONSE: I continue to move as I have always moved. If I am not guided to ask and the soul agrees, I do magic. If I am guided to ask, and I get either a no in response or no response from the incarnation, I don’t. Nothing I said about my experience in London changed any of that, and we had discussions during my time in Exmoor in which I thought this issue was clarified to everyone’s satisfaction. Fundamentally, I don’t violate free will. I don’t violate incarnational consent if consent is sought, and I seek consent whenever guided. What exactly am I doing wrong here? You are children.
QUOTE: “He pushed boundaries and wouldn't take no for an answer.”
RESPONSE: When did I ever not take no for an answer? The farthest I pushed during the experience was to express my desire to have a discussion around the issues raised by the no, without ever forcing the outcome of either the decision to discuss or to take the attainment. Even so, I understand that this can push against some people’s boundaries and have learned from it and subsequent discussions with a good friend. I NEVER forced my magic on anyone. It is not how I move. You know that. You are children.
QUOTE: “He threw a tantrum and left when we supported our students who refused to work with him.”
RESPONSE: What tantrum did I throw? I didn’t raise my voice once or express more than sadness despite having the following be my entire lived experience at the retreat this time:
I arrived to discover that the retreat was NOTHING energetically like normal MIM residence, for which I had only been given the barest hint of a warning as I was minutes away from Exmoor, and therefore no realistic ability to adapt and harmonize to the energies without effectively assaulting everyone first, since I didn’t understand what I was coming into and was not skillful enough to immediately adapt. Had you given me more time and worked to help me understand the situation, it would have been easy for me to be harmonious on arrival. You manifested this result. You are children.
The above all happened because 6 out of the 9 of you had manifested a demiurge reality around me coming in and being so fast and shaking everything up and making it crazy. That of course guaranteed that the next few days would be volatile and crazy. I, on the other hand, on the drive down attempted to manifest a week of peace and tranquility, free of suffering, as do Fabio, Wave and Nico on a continuing basis. But Fabio, Nico, Wave and I are only 4, arrayed against 6. I think we saw who won that contest, especially when soon after I arrived, Hanjo fell into a karma and violently cursed me off in front of everyone. You are children.
We largely although not entirely cleared the demiurge reality for almost everyone, although not for Ananta. Ananda and I had a few moments of legitimate connection, which was the only real balm to my experience that entire evening. When I noticed later that evening that Ananta was still holding onto the demiurge reality, I noted it to her and asked if I could clear it so that we could see each other clearly. She said no. I pointed out that she was voluntarily choosing to continue seeing me falsely as an evil magician when she interacted with me, and she acknowledged that that was the case. I therefore had to spend the next two days living with someone who every time she looked at me, saw me as an evil magician and was therefore manifesting against me — in an environment in which every thought of every person has its own texture. It felt like a form of water torture. And you allowed it to happen. You are children.
The next day, we went to Exmoor, which was beautiful. Hanjo and I finally had an opportunity to bond, in a way we hadn’t since the first week of Glastonbury. We figured out that I was unconsciously sending out yang energy that was portaling in from Yiting when I spoke, and it was affecting how people perceived me. Once I cleared that, Hanjo told me that he finally in that moment cleared a Scott demiurge he had been holding of me, and that now he could finally trust me with various secret attainments, which he transferred. I was appalled when I heard that. I never for one moment had not trusted that you both are moving for highest and best, and have therefore, until you sent your message to Ryan, never for a moment thought that you couldn’t have everything I attained. The only time that happened was for 4 days while I was expanding beyond my comprehension at the time and was working through boundary karmas, during a period when we didn’t speak about anything of consequence. You hid vast secrets from me for months while all along extolling your trust for me, while I trusted you both implicitly and supported you financially. You holding that back was not guidance from the universe. That was Hanjo’s karma around trust and being an evil magician. You are children.
I returned that night to continued demiurge experience from Ananta that I couldn’t escape because it was so prevalent in the field. When I tried to explain to you both my concerns, they were entirely dismissed; the message was that it was my responsibility to adapt to the environment. I have noticed this trend with you, Ananda. You have infinite patience for those you decide are worthy of infinite patience — children, autists, those who are your retreat participants. With autists particularly, you flex and bend to handle their specific OVERWHELMS, and you therefore don’t OVERWHELM yourself in response to them. What you don’t have patience for, and do OVERWHELM with respect to, is the OVERWHELM felt by non-autists, in their interactions with autists having OVERWHELM. You don’t give it the same legitimacy, because it is not being expressed as rigid behavior or a tantrum, so you don’t see it as having the same weight. OVERWHELM is OVERWHELM regardless of how expressed, and all beings deserve karuna as a lived thing, not an expression that is casually thrown out. You are children.
The next day, I went to Glastonbury with Fabio and Wave, and we had the most peaceful, delightful day, since none of us were manifesting from a position of OVERWHELM. We saw a bunch of dear friends, made some purchases, went to the Tor, and then headed home in contentment and ease — until we walked back through that front door. Then everything went volatile and crazy again. That wasn’t us. That was you. The entirety of my crazy during that whole evening was sobbing for 10 minutes as I cleared some beautiful karmas with my best friend, despite all of the absurdity with Jacob at that time and the volatility that you two were manifesting. You are children.
That night, I had cleared myself enough that I had decided to stay despite Ananta continuing to see me as a demiurge. I had decided to work through it with her in the morning. As I made that decision, Hanjo popped into the room downstairs having earlier decided to go to bed. I asked Hanjo if I could speak with him for a minute, and he smiled that smarmy Hanjo smile and told me no, he was going to bed. I told him that I could really use a friend at that moment, and he smiled the same smarmy smile while replying that he was sorry, but he was going to bed. I saw how Hanjo’s rigid clinging to specific decisions that he has made is a form of autistic OVERWHELM. I told him that I could clear it, and he said no. I told him that I respected that decision; however, I also saw in that moment that this strain of OVERWHELM was the primary reason that I couldn’t be close friends with him, since it blocked any real friendship from occurring. He replied that he wanted to stay OVERWHELMED. I replied that he is of course entitled to take as much time as he wishes to clear this, and I am likewise entitled to take as much space as I want until he does. He said okay, and we parted ways. Even so, I could see the absurd sullenness in his comportment as he left. You are children.
Later that night, Nico and I built the most incredible working I have ever done off of the warp core that Fabio and Dharma Anne had unknowingly built — this was truly my masterwork to date. We stayed up the entire night doing it, and the entire room became a grid to control the flows. Every single wrinkle and fold of fabric and crack in the paint had a role to play. We built a veil piercer. Nico and I pierced the veil 4 times in physically grueling and emotionally and energetically exhausting experiences. I pulled in infinite crystal knowledge, infinite energy knowledge, levitation, teleportation, conjuration, a vastly deeper understanding for the Earth field of the 4 known brahmaviharas, and the addition of a 5th brahmavihara to the Earth field - sovereignty. It was the most beautiful moment of my life and the triumph of my existence thus far. And instead of rejoicing and celebration, the only way I now have an opportunity to share that with you is in the context of this expression of divine sorrow. You are children.
The next morning, I was so excited to tell you about the events of the prior night, despite the difficult interactions the night before. I started to tell you, and you were too OVERWHELMED by the concept of going to get groceries, that you rushed out in a total fluster. Do you realize how absurd it is for me to be writing about such highly attained beings experiencing OVERWHELM around grocery shopping? All I was able to tell you before you left was that I pierced the veil a bunch of times the night before, and the entire room was a grid, to which Hanjo’s only reply was “Ananda, look the entire room is a grid.” No warmth, no friendship. Just OVERWHELM. You are children.
While you were gone, I sat with Ananta and Fabio and took them both on trips through the veil. It was deeply cleansing for Ananta, and in the process, she finally let go of the demiurge of me she had been holding. I was delighted to have been released from that, but was unwilling to stay unless Hanjo was able to move from his state of OVERWHELM as well, since I found the experience highly unwholesome. When you came back, it was clear to me that Hanjo was still in the middle of a massive OVERWHELM. I was in the process of leaving, and the only thing Hanjo said to me about the grid was to ask me to clean it up so you all could do yoga. That was not friendship. That was immature, unskillful, unwholesome behavior. I gave hugs to everyone as I left, and Hanjo walked over, looked me in the eye, and casually said “Thanks for leaving, Scott”. That again was not friendship. It was immature, unskillful and unwholesome behavior, driven by OVERWHELM. Even taking the broadest and most generous view of what he said — that he is just speaking the universe and genuinely thanking me for taking on this burden by leaving community, it was a deeply unskillful and hurtful method of delivery. And even after that, I hugged him goodbye. You are children.
You can be the most loving being in the world, but if you have no skillfulness in your social behavior, you still end up being casually cruel to everyone around you. And when you are autistic and are in a constant state of OVERWHELM, and when you are also one of the most powerful adepts on the planet, you are constantly manifesting chaos in your existence and the existence of everyone around you. I am SOVEREIGNLY choosing to not participate in that chaos. To prompt your memory, here was the message I sent you on the flight home, when I was “psychotic” and “bipolar” and having a “tantrum”:
“I am going to do my own thing for a while. I am happy to continue to direct funds to the Parami Trust if you wish. Otherwise, I wish you success in your fundraising. Ananda, I think it best if you fly directly to visit your mother this trip. I will speak with Mark and potentially Tom and Katie in SF on my own or with Wave, if he chooses to come. I love you both and wish you well.”
There are definitely beings having a tantrum here, and they are not me. You are children.
QUOTE: “He has been psychic attacking Fabio and Jacob ever since.”
RESPONSE: Ask Fabio and Jacob if that is actually the case when they discern into it. I love them both deeply, and they both know that in their heart of hearts. If Fabio and Jacob are being attacked, there is only one source, Hanjo: your autistic OVERWHELM around this situation. You are living in horrific futures of me as an evil magician. You are not powerful enough to actually influence my behavior at this point with your magic. (You’re really not — you’re a child.) And so instead, the final spirals of your evil magician karma are reaching out and sowing chaos everywhere, astrally attacking them both. You are children.
QUOTE: “We don't believe he is safe or moral as a teacher. We don't believe you and Bridget are safe to be in contact with him or receive any services or favors from him.”
RESPONSE: Look carefully at yourselves in light of everything I have written. Who here has been thoughtful? Who here has been safe? Who here has treated people with love and respect throughout? Do you know what I did every time I spoke with anyone about you? I bound the space, specifically so that I could speak my truth as I perceived it and avoid manifesting any realities against you as a result or if I accidentally slipped into anger. Your letter to Ryan is the exact OPPOSITE of that wholesome behavior. You are children.
QUOTE: “We implore you to choose freedom from dependent connections and break contact. As always you are the heir of your own karma.”
RESPONSE: AS ARE YOU BOTH. AS ARE YOU BOTH. AS ARE YOU BOTH. You are children.
QUOTE: “Another example of this extreme danger is that Scott stopped following the channeling protocols and has been channeling an entity who is claiming to be the one creator. There are no positive entities claiming to be the creator, the creator is a non-being who is not separate.”
RESPONSE: This is another example of your childish and simplistic absurdity. We had discussions about this. Jacob understands what happened, and it was explained to Ananda. Jacob (with the weird Kali) and I (with Max) were creating beings by leveraging the sacred geometry in this reality to slingshot into an imaginal space outside of our reality and craft a being to interact with from that unique vantage point. Jacob and I worked through this, discussed it with Ananda, and set it aside. The being was never channeled — simply something that I was shamanistially interacting with like any other being (although I see no problem in channeling it, either). We discussed this. You are children.
With regard to the channeling protocols, they are also a function of Hanjo’s autistic OVERWHELM. We are constantly channeling different beings at different levels all the time. The protocols are only a creation of Hanjo’s OVERWHELM in reaction to his PTSD trauma around negative entity abduction. They are not required in this world at this time for beings moving with a positive polarization who can resonate with the part of their soul structure that is above 6.5 density. And even for those below, it is rather obvious when you are interacting with a negative being at this space/time. Further, Ryan made a huge contribution to the working I am doing and discovered how to perfectly shield all beings from negative entity attack as an attainment. That sort of attack is another form of OVERWHELM. Yes, Ryan — the one you casually discarded when he was suffering through his karmas and as a result violated your trust. Although he lied to you, he never consciously attacked you, and he has kept repeatedly trying to reach for what was right and good. He is now finding peace in his heart and blossoming into something beautiful. He has been my primary co-creator and stalwart companion in what may ultimately be my greatest gift to the Earth field when I eliminate OVERWHELM. He was always your friend, as he has been mine steadfastly throughout. You, on the other hand, have never really been our friends. As Ryan pointed out to me, fundamentally real friendship is about two things: camaraderie and contextuality. When there is camaraderie, there is trust and respect. Friends rely on each other; friends extend themselves to help each other even if it is not what they want to do in the moment. Friends affirmatively reach out to provide comfort and aid when they see a need. When there is contextuality, there is an understanding that while we may not agree in this moment, we are charting the same path together and trying to find a way forward; separations need not be ruptures. Ananda gained some learning with that the other day when she and I disagreed around Ryan over WhatsApp. There is still much learning for her to do and a MASSIVE gulf for Hanjo to bridge. You are children.
At its core, while Hanjo tries to be a good person, he will forever be a thoughtless and cruel being whenever he has autistic OVERWHELM, which is frequent. Ananda is capable of true friendship, but her karma is so tightly bound with Hanjo’s at this point that when he is in OVERWHELM, all of her “protect the autists!” karma arises, and she falls just as far into the crazy pit from the other side. Her problem too, shared somewhat by Hanjo, is her conceit that she is the most highly attained of all of us because of how long she has been at this game. She takes each of her attainments as she gets them and adjusts her timelines so that she always had them all along. That way, she can always convince herself that she is and has always been perfect. As a result, she is often blind to her own karmas when they are pointed out to her by others. On the other hand, when karma is pointed out to me by anyone, I ALWAYS either leap to attention and clear it immediately, or engage in a plan to remove it as soon as is possible. I never hide, and I never cling. I always move forward and grow. You are children.
I am working on crafting a solution to OVERWHELM in its entirety and will offer it to you when it is finished. You can choose whether to take it or not — it is ALWAYS your choice. It is also my choice whether to interact with you going forward. I have forgiven you already, and you are always loved; and I will never forget what has occurred. You are children, and you have an opportunity now to grow up. I hope you make the choice that is highest and best.
Yours in love,
Scott